Reflection #2
"I'm releasing the need to control my life out of fear."How to release that need? How do I stop the "feelings" from overwhelming me? How do I lay it all at God's feet and leave it alone? That seems to be an ongoing occurance with me. I "release" it and yet hold so tightly to it. Why? What is this need for control in my life. I find that I want to control my environment, my feelings, any and everything to do with myself I must control. To try and get through it, I will pray for patience, faith, and the ability to 'Let Go and Let God'. To truly let go over the things I lay at His feet. If only I could truly release them....... Holding onto these things bundled in my arms; makes me hunch over and 'horde' them to myself. Causing all kinds of physical manifestations of my worries. It's a vicious cycle, it keeps turning and turning.....I keep swimming, swimming, swimming..... Thanks for checkin on me!
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Wish i had some answers for you lovely, I like you realise these things but feel utterly unable to give them up, Am clueless as to why. I think for me I stay in and isolate because it feels so unsafe \"out there\" so I stay in to stay safe, when I said this to my counsellor she said \"yeah that seems fair enough it is not entirly safe out there\", this didnt really help i wanted her to tell me there was nothing to worry about etc etc anyway sorry for rambling, I will pray for you to let go and let God, It is so much easier if we give Him the burden.
lots of love and hugs
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