Reevaluation

I am tired today.  There is no work for me to do.  I have asked my boss if she has anything for me.  She is planning on giving me some of the front desk ladies duties which is going to cause I think some upset.  I got a email from my friend in NJ yesterday asking me if I was going to call him.  I don't feel inclined to.  He was a part of my past that I don't really wish to keep a hold of.  I feel if I keep trying to hold onto things in the past, that it might hinder me from moving forward.  Besides, at this moment, the best I can do is just listen to him.  And the converstion usually goes to him coming to visit.  He is seperated from his wife, however, I am in a somewhat stable relationship even though lonely at times.  There is nothing I can do to help him.  I'm frankly tired of doing all the work in any relationships Ive gotten in.  Friendships included.  I have a freind in Fort Lauderdale, she was my best friend before I left abruptly 3 years ago.  Even though we text from time to time, I feel I have nothing to say to her only that I hope she's doing ok.  She wants me to come visit however Ft. Lauderdale is where my ex and his kids live and I don't want to run into any of them.  It was just a place where I was very unhappy in a bad time of my marriage and don't wish to go there, or atleast I'm not ready to. 

I guess I'm just reevaluating everyone and everything.