Recovering: update
I recovered for a few days. Then I drove my daughter to Paducah for a dr. appt. The drive sent me into another 2 day crash. I took it easy for another few days. Then, Fri. and Sat. I started washing the exterior of the house and the windows. I'm going slowly, work awhile rest awhile. I awoke with a monster headache this morning, but the meds are kicking in. I feel better than I did a year ago, but I still don't feel as good as I did 2 or 3 months ago.
I officially hate the church we are at now. I didn't like it before. Now I hate it. I was in a mixed gender Sunday school class with my husband. I refuse to go back to that class. On the last Sunday in July, we studied Ahab and Jezebel. At the end of class, our teacher couldn't resist going on a Jezebel rant. He began with "Men, you are the heads of your households and your wives have to submit to you!" Then he went on about how all churches have Jezebels. They gossip, the don't obey their husbands, yada, yada, yada ..... He closed with, "If your wife is acting like a Jezebel, get her in line. Use your boot if you have to!" Now I'm going to one of the "women's" classes. Women aren't allowed to participate in mixed gender classes, anyway. Women are only allowed to speak in segregated classes. (How would the general public react if non-caucasians were allowed to speak only when they are segregated?) Unless I'm feeling really bad, when we go somewhere in my car I drive. There's a couple of guys at church who have picked on Tim because of that. Well, now I refuse to drive to church. If women are only allowed to participate in segregated classes, then we should only be allowed to drive in segregated vehicles. Church ticks me off to no end. Every Sunday, I'm in a bad mood. I think the bad mood spills over and has a negative effect on the CFS. Is that what church is supposed to do for you??? I don't go on Sunday nights and Wednesday nights anymore. Sunday morning is almost more that I can take. Please, if women rate that low, just leave us at home in our kennels.
I had an eye exam last Tuesday -- the first in 3 years. Doc says my glasses are way off, and he berated (nicely and jokingly) me for not already having bifocals. Uhg. New glasses have been ordered. Pain in the butt. My face is so small that I ended up picking children's frames. My hope: new glasses = fewer headaches = less fatigue????
I had an appt with my new neurologist Wed. All of my test results are in! I already knew that I'm an exception to a lot of medical rules. Now this doc knows it, too! we joked around a bit about my brain damage (began with car wreck in 1982). I told the doc that the only broken bones I suffered were in my head, but I did have a few scars on my upper arm from headlight glass. He said, "You have a lot of scarring on your brain, too!" Time to get serious....... The doc is absolutely amazed that I recoved well enough just to walk and talk, let alone go to college .... function "normally" for so many years ..... then the stroke, and I can still walk and talk and drive and think like a "normal" person. He sent me into shock.He began asking a barrage of questions that I thought to be strange: do I black out sometimes, etc. When I asked why these questions? ... what's going on??? .... he said that he can not understand why I don't have seizures. He told me not to be surprised if I did begin having seizures. 33 years of brain damage, yet I function normally and I have not had a seizure, yet. Miracles happen. I am proof. Gives me hope that there may be a miracle down the pike for CFS and Fibro!
I am posting some more photos. I'll try to catch up on everyone's journals this week. I have missed y'all!
I officially hate the church we are at now. I didn't like it before. Now I hate it. I was in a mixed gender Sunday school class with my husband. I refuse to go back to that class. On the last Sunday in July, we studied Ahab and Jezebel. At the end of class, our teacher couldn't resist going on a Jezebel rant. He began with "Men, you are the heads of your households and your wives have to submit to you!" Then he went on about how all churches have Jezebels. They gossip, the don't obey their husbands, yada, yada, yada ..... He closed with, "If your wife is acting like a Jezebel, get her in line. Use your boot if you have to!" Now I'm going to one of the "women's" classes. Women aren't allowed to participate in mixed gender classes, anyway. Women are only allowed to speak in segregated classes. (How would the general public react if non-caucasians were allowed to speak only when they are segregated?) Unless I'm feeling really bad, when we go somewhere in my car I drive. There's a couple of guys at church who have picked on Tim because of that. Well, now I refuse to drive to church. If women are only allowed to participate in segregated classes, then we should only be allowed to drive in segregated vehicles. Church ticks me off to no end. Every Sunday, I'm in a bad mood. I think the bad mood spills over and has a negative effect on the CFS. Is that what church is supposed to do for you??? I don't go on Sunday nights and Wednesday nights anymore. Sunday morning is almost more that I can take. Please, if women rate that low, just leave us at home in our kennels.
I had an eye exam last Tuesday -- the first in 3 years. Doc says my glasses are way off, and he berated (nicely and jokingly) me for not already having bifocals. Uhg. New glasses have been ordered. Pain in the butt. My face is so small that I ended up picking children's frames. My hope: new glasses = fewer headaches = less fatigue????
I had an appt with my new neurologist Wed. All of my test results are in! I already knew that I'm an exception to a lot of medical rules. Now this doc knows it, too! we joked around a bit about my brain damage (began with car wreck in 1982). I told the doc that the only broken bones I suffered were in my head, but I did have a few scars on my upper arm from headlight glass. He said, "You have a lot of scarring on your brain, too!" Time to get serious....... The doc is absolutely amazed that I recoved well enough just to walk and talk, let alone go to college .... function "normally" for so many years ..... then the stroke, and I can still walk and talk and drive and think like a "normal" person. He sent me into shock.He began asking a barrage of questions that I thought to be strange: do I black out sometimes, etc. When I asked why these questions? ... what's going on??? .... he said that he can not understand why I don't have seizures. He told me not to be surprised if I did begin having seizures. 33 years of brain damage, yet I function normally and I have not had a seizure, yet. Miracles happen. I am proof. Gives me hope that there may be a miracle down the pike for CFS and Fibro!
I am posting some more photos. I'll try to catch up on everyone's journals this week. I have missed y'all!
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Hey, dear. OK, your church officially sucks! I just read last night a segment of a book by Leanne Payne. She said that the original posture of both men and women was upright before God. After the Fall, women began to bend toward man and find their worth in relation to man. Men began to bend toward the ground and find their worth in their work. Both responses are sinful. I would suggest that the teacher\'s comments go way beyond annoying and into the territory of heresy. I will pray for you that you find the way through this situation. I know it would be hard to leave there, but I am seriously concerned about the toll it is taking on your health. You should leave church feeling free, not feeling a heavy weight of legalism on your shoulders. I would run far and fast, but the question is whether you can get Tim to understand how dangerous it is. Hold tight. Love you.
What a strange church.The poor men are a little dazed and confused if they think that by being in their temporary male bodies designates some spiritual supremacy over the women.We are all spiritually equal.We have different duties and capabilities due to the different bodies we are living our lives in.Male body or female body, healthy body or sick body but in our original spiritual body we are equal.Of course we are inferior to God.That is very obvious.We can all see our limited control..However to believe that a man is spiritually superior to a woman is actually unintelligent.It is really acting on a bodily platform and not on a spiritual platform.Our relationship with God is based on love.Our gender has nothing to do with that relationship.False ego is having its play here with these men.It must bs so difficult for you to associate with this mentality.You can\'t put a dark blind fold on here Nancy.God gives us the intelligence to see. Hey Nancy..even with the brain damage you are still smarter Lol!! No offense meant there. As far as ths seizures go, after not having any, all these years, it seems unlikely that you will have any.Hope not . You\'re a legend. Now take it easy and don\'t over work that little body now.Hugs and healing spirit soul.xo
I completely agree with you, Heather and Di. I don\'t know how much longer I can take this church without exploding in somebody\'s face and calling a spade a spade. Tim has admitted that he doesn\'t notice the things that upset me because he is a man, but he still likes it there. We may have to go to separate churches, whether he is embarrassed by it or not!
Di, no offense taken with the brain damage comment. We only use about 10% of our brains, and my brain keeps restructuring itself and overriding the damaged parts so that I\'m good to go! Church may not be so good, but God still is.
If you haven\'t had a seizure by now...you probably will never have one. Actually, fact is, many, many people have one seizure in their lifetime for absolutely no reason at all! Dems is the fact. I\'m a registered EEG technologist. I do brains for a living. It is a miracle that with scaring on your brain from a head trauma, that you have not had seizures. PTL for that. Medicine does not have all the answers. I wish they would sometimes just shut up!
Speaking of which,.....!!!!! ???? What is wrong with the people in that church! That\'s not a church. If Tim can\'t differentiate the truth of \"The Word\" and that we were created equally by God, and that men are to love and protect their wives, then he\'s deliberately ignoring his role as a husband. These people are crazy. I do not see this as a \"Spirit filled church\" I see it as blasphemy, and you, my dear friend, shouldn\'t step foot in there again. Unless you have a shot gun.
Sorry. This just REALLY ticks me off. That you have to be subjected to this. Make it go away, ok? Thanks. xox