If GOD chooses tomuse us a different way I guess that's it.I am hoping for a sudden and complete recovery and wish the same for others who have suffered and almost gave up....but Life wont give up on you even if you do completely giveup.I was always too scared to kill myself but could have murdered Bryan back in January.came close to manslaughter that night.just wanted him to shutthefuckup.scares me that loss of controlmanslaughter not murder but they are still dead....or anyway severely uncomfortableouch. freudian typos will be allowed here as tomuse us is more what i really meant...lolto myself i am well and happy