Really hurting

So as it stated in the last update, I was unhappy, well last month I was thrown out on my ass, had to say goodbye to my daughter. The mother lied stating I had beat the hell out of her. I see my daughter for 6 hours every Sunday, but its not enough. I am in court again trying to get more visits but due to the fact I took the fall for my son it doesn't look good, not just that recently the mother of my child told me for the last 2 years she and a coworker shacked up behind my back and for in return he would give her money in exchange for well you know. I love my daughter very much I won't stop fighting but I wonder would she be better off without me? I now have to go through Parenting Class again, Domestic violence courses, 2 psych evaluations anger management class, but yet I never hit a woman in my life I have standards I'm not a scuzz like most men out there. Ugh sometimes I think suicide but my daughter would be lost I think but hey if I would happen to die maybe I can be with her 24/7 I don't know I'm calling it an early night and try to sleep. Thanks for reading