Really Bummed Today

Why must people lie to me? My husband, my children, my so called friends. I don't have anyone that I can trust anymore. Why am I not worth telling the truth to? What have I done to people to deserve to be treated like this? I am an honest and faithful person. I was always told to treat people the way that I want to be treated, but my kindness is my biggest weakness. Everyone seems to take advantage of me because of it. I am not worthy of being told the truth, I am not worthy of friends, a good family, happiness, or love. Without any of that, I have nothing left to live for. If I am not worth any of this than I am not worth life. I hate feeling like this..... I need to stop thinking like this...........