REALIZE BAND (lap-band)

I didn't want to say a lot about myself. But I had just given up after Mandi was killed. I gave up on me. My hair, appearance, clothing, make-up, and more was not important any longer. Ray (my son) asked me out to dinner with his club friends and I went. I looked around at the other Moms and girlfriends and I was embarassed at myself. I talked to him on the way home and He said he loves me no matter what. I went to my doctors office, stepped upon the scales and I was SHOCKED. I couldn't beleive that no one else was on the scales with me. I cried because I was so mad at myself. I go to the doctor maybe 1 time a year. My doctor was so happy to hear that i was ready to change my sorry made life and get back to a living life. We talked about lap-band surgery and since I have never had a surgery I was kinda scared. But I know if I didn't do something now I was going to die. I gave up on all drinkable liquids except for WATER on May 01,2008. I had to have a Cava vein filter (to help prevent a blood clot) put in on June 04,2008. (My Daddy died from a blood clot from surgery in August 2007) I had to be weighed and 30 pounds were already GONE. I thought I was going to flip out.  So on my Band surgery day, (June 10, 2008) came and I had to weighed again, total of 35 pounds Gone. I did great at both surgeries. I wanted to join a gym but to costly. My friend, Linda bought me a tread mill and I have been walking a mile to a mile and a half a day. I'm not suppose to weigh myself until I go back to the doctor for my fill on (July 24,2008)  I have cut my portions in half, continue with just drinking water. and walking. I am working hard to make myself to feel better about my self. Keep Praying for me. Thanks for all your support. You ALL mean a lot to me. Love, Shelia