Realizations of a high

I realize now that Its all on meIts my life, My destiny! I once was blind but now I seeThat I am the one who controls me!This may seem so obviousBut I have been delirious My anxiety owned meBut I will fight to set myself freeI need to grow up and liveI need to just jump right inNo more one foot at a timeIt is time for me to take a diveI  need to man the fuck up!Ride over my obstacles like a monster truckI refuse to let this clarity goI must make sure these lessons showIn my life from this day forward!If must read this every day!!To let these lessons resonate!Ring true to me like a sweet bellI am the devil in my own hell.I am the one who calls the shots!I am the one who needs to walkOn this twisted lonely pathIf I stumble people will passIts not their job to lift me upWe are all in the same rutsI need to be strong inside Spread my wings and let myself flyIf I fall I must again riseOne day I will get it rightOne day I will fly away!!Even if the skys are grey Even in the black of nightIt is me and MY PLIGHT!!Its my fight!! I must do whats right!!I must not be scared this is just lifeI may only get one chanceI must make it freakin last!!I must not let it wiz by fast!I need  to recheck the glassMaybe it is more like half fullI AM MY BIGGEST OBSTACLE!! Ill open my eyes a bit more wideLet out the me insideStop drowning my sorrow with drugsMaybe I just need more hugsI see now what I need is loveAnd not from others but from Just one!!From myself!  
I love you Tray!! Your awesome!! Dont ever forget it buddy!!