realization...........

yesterday when i was driving home from work i was pretty pissed off....i work with 3 other girls on saturdays and one girl, M, did absoulutly nothing yesterday.....she sat on her butt the whole time.....it made me mad...my plans was to restrict for 24 hours since i was so close to doing so the day before on friday.....well i took a nap for close to 2.5 hours....when i woke up i was hungry and i knew that restricting wouldn't solve anything so i got up and ate....i was really proud of myself...i ate dinner and i ate breakfast this morning....i feel super full since i wasn't eating a lot before, but i'm eating again!!!! :) i told my parents yesterday that ia realized that restricting wouldn't solve anything and they were really proud of me.....i'm glad that they had that reaction....that boosted my mood too....and i relized that sometimes they say the wrong things b/c they don't know how to react...this is new for them just like cutting was new for them too when they found out i was....as was me being depressed, me being raped and me going to the hospital amd being admitted.....i dunno....i feel more calm now and ready to face this ED head on!!!!