Reality Check

When I decided that I wanted to restart my weight loss, I knew what my weight was and I knew it was bad, but today I decided to check my BMI.  I went online and found out that I am 3 lbs into the OBESE category.  WOW, what a reality check.  I knew my weight had crept up there and I knew I was close, but seing that word was kind of scary.  I have a family history of diabetes, I carry the APO E 4/4 gene (which greatly contributes to my problem), and I have a catastrophic history of heart disease (which is why I am vegan - except for fish).  BOTH of my sisters have been obsese since childhood and I was always the "thin" one.  NO MORE!  This was quite a wake up call.
I also realized that my two favorite T-shirts are XL.  Seriously?  I have only worn larges the last few years and now I prefer the XL?  I tried to tell myself that one of them was because it was the "girl" cut, but that is just no good.  This has to stop before I am being scheduled for a triple bypass.  I have to deal with my emotions and stress another way.  I want to do this.  I want to manage my food and emotional stress and feel better about the way I look.  I want to go to the doctor and not dread the scales.  I want to be proud of my ability to meet this goal.  I can do this.  I want to lose weight.  I want  to do what it takes to manage my emotions and lose weight.  I want to look up my BMI in a year and see the word "Normal".