Reached the bottom

I don't think I can go any lower. I messed everything up. So - there were still some sums my Wife didn't know about. Quite much (about 3 times her salary). Few days agou there came an information, that She will be fined for not paying annual income tax (wich was already paid, however with a large delay - almost a year). She had to go to the tax office today. I went with Her, because I do all the paper work (and I am wondering all the time if that is a good idea). Well, when we were there it turned out that I've got some old penalties to pay. Some not so old - from February only. I didn't tell Her about them, thinking I can cope with that. Later it also turned out that I still have some very old taxes to pay. I found out about it on February actually, when visiting th office to receive that penalty. Anyway - it was obvius I was lying again. I see no other choice. It is a lot of money, I don't have work at the moment. She is angry about me and oh yes, She has reasons for that. I don't know if She has any other feelings about me but anger. It seems like I have reached the lowest possible point and really I have to move out. I'm packing my stuff now. I have to carry my luggage - the divorce will me due to my fault, She will get almost everything we have. These are all my decisions. We have some savings, She can use them to pay debts that directly influences Her and pay at least one year of Her studies. I can give Her nothing more at the moment. I love Her, but I already hurt Her to much.  I feel as low as possible... Was there no other way. Did I really have to fall that low to be able to change myself. Do I have to loose the women I love most? I already told Her and my parents about the situation. Explained it was all my fault. Also asked Her mother to come for few days so that my Wife isn't left alone at this difficult situation. Can I do anything more? I'm closing my "bussiness". It run me into many trouble and was only giving false self-pride that I own a company. No it was the company that was owning me. And I couldn't face its needs, like claiming clients for unpaid money, sending invoices and tax forms in time... For the first time in my life I have goals. My own goals. And there are three of them. One - fight for One I love. But in this I see no chances at the moment. Second - get a job I see interesting - realized that during last year. And finally (but as important as all others) - stop lying. Only revealing ALL lies to EVERYONE involved can lead me to that. And seems like I'm finally getting ready for that. I may totally ruin my first goal. But I see how important it is and that only this can get me out of this swamp. Torn into thousand pieces...