Relax

I need a day today where I don't do anything stressful. Time to decompress. I went to the doctor to get some antibiotics to deal with this flu bug. Then I bought a new chair so my back will stop killing me while I sit in front of my computer doing college course work. Grabbed some new comfy clothes, everything else I have does not fit properly... eating out of stress and trying to eat the panic attacks away is really a bad idea. Hopefully the blood work the doctors ordered will ease my mind or at least give me some answers. At this point if the doc says hey this is what is wrong with you now, I can live with that. I hate it when people like me don't have answers for the cause of their panic attacks. If nothing is wrong then I can focus on the panic attacks. Panic attacks are not going to hurt me, they are just sensations and will pass. I can deal with a panic attack, they suck, but once I know there is no real medical problem behind them I can take the wind out of their sails. To anyone reading this, including myself, just keep going, keep trying, don't give up. Each moment of peace we get is worth it.