Ranting and Raving

I don't really understand why it feels like everyone has it better than me. Of course my family is nuts. It's always is let me see what I can get that's better than yours. We bought a house, my sister buys a house. I have 3 sisters. Yeah... My mother favors one of us and can care less about the rest of us. My children, myself, nor my husband will never be as good as my sister Wendy. And she treats the 3 off us like trash, but 9nr is lined in gold. 
 
I want to feel whole, I want to feel like I can do anything. I want to be loved, liked, I want someone to look up to me. I've been thinking about going back to school, but as I have that thought I feel like why do that. I'm 37, I'm older than most that goes to college, and by the time I would finish not one person would hire me because I haven worked in 20 years and have no experience. It's frustrating. 
 
On a different note, I am very excited  to get moved into our new house. I am looking forward to August when we can hopefully  take our vacation. 
 
My goal, that I am not adding here, is to start college and loose weight. I need to start something so I can accept myself. Fingers crossed...