Rant/Like Vs. Lust
So This Rant is going to be about 2 parts and then there is a nice little funny one i will write... but I am going t Rant and then write another journal Containing. Like Vs. Lust.
So first off I'm going to start by saying I have noticed I have a lot of cuts on my left hand recently. One in my palm don't know what from. One from a box that nicely sliced my finger while I was looking for the casing to put back on my jeep steering wheel after installing my radio like 2 years back.... and then there is one on my wrist.... now this one on my wrist... happened last night I decided i wanted some ice cream.... and when looking for the scoop i was unsuccessful... So i grabbed a big plastic spoon we had... and began scooping and it was all good till the spoon broke in half and scraped into my wrist causing it to bleed... and i walked in the living room with the spoon and my mom said if it's that hard whatever it is i don't want it... I was like it's ice cream she was like we have a scoop... im like naw shit i didn't see it.... so i ask for a bandaid while she laughs at me and then look in the top drawer again to find the effin scoop up against the front of the drawer... Wow Lol.. what a night....
Well this morning I went to bed about 3 am..... and at 7... my dads alarm went off..... now him and my mom can sleep through it unless im really tired or my door is shut i can too but other wise im a light sleeper so that woke me up... (mind you i had to work) So he finally shut it off and i could go back to sleep....at 8 am it goes off again... and this time goes longer and longer... i cover my head with my pillow and cuss..... cause i have to be up in 45 minutes and 2 hours and 45 minutes of sleep were gone.... So i get up and get dressed and im sitting in the living room putting on my boots and my mom walks in and asks if i want breakfast... and im like sure but I have to go now.....and she's like oh i thought you were daddy... and i thought i heard her wrong so i walked back in and asked her.. and of course she thought i was daddy SO i didn't get any breakfast because of course im not my flippin dad!!!!....
So I go to work and that's when I started formulating my journals.... and of course for once I'm feeling light and happy.... while dumping the bucket i almost slipped and fell and landed in a big pile of manure but at that time I would of laughed it off anyways....because I was genuinely happy to get all this off my chest.... getting done with work i took my hat off and noticed my hair was a mess.. but it's work i never get dressed for work.... I go in jeans that are 3 sizes to big they used to be not to big at all but after losing 30 lbs.. so i can wear them with sweatpants to stay warm. But i also didn't mind because after weeks of waiting Im going to get my hair redone.... I wish i could get my highlights touched up... because they don't show now that my hair is straighter.. but either way my journal paused while i was riding home no doubt looking a mess i had my window down singing to the top of my lung the songs... and even waving to a guy who was walking up our road... Yes we have our own road it is very good for runs at night.... to clear your head.... well then i got to the dirt part of our road whipped on the 4 wheel drive and flew down it it was great mud flying and singing ahh the days.......but anyways back to the songs... of course the songs that came on were with my feelings.... and Then You Can't Hurry love Diana ross and the supremes/ Phil collins came on....Damn ipod and it knows how to know what you feel...... anyways.... That song is in my head now... and I feel every bit as strong on that song...
Well i got home, and of course my dad was outside fixing something with the fence and my mom was in the kitchen.... well i thought she was going to cook breakfast because he was here. but it turns out....He didn't want anything that's why she's not cooking and she might cook it for lunch.... Sometimes Im glad i don't eat breakfast she's Only cooked breakfast for ONCE in which she sincerely for me other wise its for dad what he wants he gets... I know I'm whining but I'm done with that he gets what he wants i go on about my life I work my ass off for all the money that I have.... even though it goes fast..... but I work my ass off... ...
despite the bad that i have listed in this journal i am happy... and i have updated overcome loneliness because I'm going to force myself not to feel lonely anymore.... I will work to fix the lonely moments i have....... Also now I am watching Ghost of Girlfriends past... it's such an amazing movie.... i love it
Thank you for taking the time to read this.... hugs will definitely be great....
So first off I'm going to start by saying I have noticed I have a lot of cuts on my left hand recently. One in my palm don't know what from. One from a box that nicely sliced my finger while I was looking for the casing to put back on my jeep steering wheel after installing my radio like 2 years back.... and then there is one on my wrist.... now this one on my wrist... happened last night I decided i wanted some ice cream.... and when looking for the scoop i was unsuccessful... So i grabbed a big plastic spoon we had... and began scooping and it was all good till the spoon broke in half and scraped into my wrist causing it to bleed... and i walked in the living room with the spoon and my mom said if it's that hard whatever it is i don't want it... I was like it's ice cream she was like we have a scoop... im like naw shit i didn't see it.... so i ask for a bandaid while she laughs at me and then look in the top drawer again to find the effin scoop up against the front of the drawer... Wow Lol.. what a night....
Well this morning I went to bed about 3 am..... and at 7... my dads alarm went off..... now him and my mom can sleep through it unless im really tired or my door is shut i can too but other wise im a light sleeper so that woke me up... (mind you i had to work) So he finally shut it off and i could go back to sleep....at 8 am it goes off again... and this time goes longer and longer... i cover my head with my pillow and cuss..... cause i have to be up in 45 minutes and 2 hours and 45 minutes of sleep were gone.... So i get up and get dressed and im sitting in the living room putting on my boots and my mom walks in and asks if i want breakfast... and im like sure but I have to go now.....and she's like oh i thought you were daddy... and i thought i heard her wrong so i walked back in and asked her.. and of course she thought i was daddy SO i didn't get any breakfast because of course im not my flippin dad!!!!....
So I go to work and that's when I started formulating my journals.... and of course for once I'm feeling light and happy.... while dumping the bucket i almost slipped and fell and landed in a big pile of manure but at that time I would of laughed it off anyways....because I was genuinely happy to get all this off my chest.... getting done with work i took my hat off and noticed my hair was a mess.. but it's work i never get dressed for work.... I go in jeans that are 3 sizes to big they used to be not to big at all but after losing 30 lbs.. so i can wear them with sweatpants to stay warm. But i also didn't mind because after weeks of waiting Im going to get my hair redone.... I wish i could get my highlights touched up... because they don't show now that my hair is straighter.. but either way my journal paused while i was riding home no doubt looking a mess i had my window down singing to the top of my lung the songs... and even waving to a guy who was walking up our road... Yes we have our own road it is very good for runs at night.... to clear your head.... well then i got to the dirt part of our road whipped on the 4 wheel drive and flew down it it was great mud flying and singing ahh the days.......but anyways back to the songs... of course the songs that came on were with my feelings.... and Then You Can't Hurry love Diana ross and the supremes/ Phil collins came on....Damn ipod and it knows how to know what you feel...... anyways.... That song is in my head now... and I feel every bit as strong on that song...
Well i got home, and of course my dad was outside fixing something with the fence and my mom was in the kitchen.... well i thought she was going to cook breakfast because he was here. but it turns out....He didn't want anything that's why she's not cooking and she might cook it for lunch.... Sometimes Im glad i don't eat breakfast she's Only cooked breakfast for ONCE in which she sincerely for me other wise its for dad what he wants he gets... I know I'm whining but I'm done with that he gets what he wants i go on about my life I work my ass off for all the money that I have.... even though it goes fast..... but I work my ass off... ...
despite the bad that i have listed in this journal i am happy... and i have updated overcome loneliness because I'm going to force myself not to feel lonely anymore.... I will work to fix the lonely moments i have....... Also now I am watching Ghost of Girlfriends past... it's such an amazing movie.... i love it
Thank you for taking the time to read this.... hugs will definitely be great....
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