Random writing

I hold your words close to me
But they aren't what they used to be.
They've slowly turned to painful lies,
And turned into painful goodbyes
Our friendship turned one sided
And to save your life I was binded
I was scared to lose you,
So I didn't know what to do.
I put you first
You made me feel worse
And now I'm alone and screwed up.
While you're a beautiful flower bud waiting to erupt.