Random thoughts...

So here I am up early... I'm expecting company today that I'd rather not have... all in all I don't know when they're coming so its like I have to stay stuck in the house... I had a fairly decent day yesterday ha... I only cried once... I got a lot of bad news but I guess the delivery helped it not be so bad... The thing about it though is that now I have all these questions and I know that if I ask them it will just cause more pain... So instead I choose to try to fight off the negative thoughts that are trying to pry their way in... And as I'm writing this I get a call saying that they're not coming today... but will be here sometime next week... So now I have to wonder until next week... Relationship wise things are fairly smooth again I have things I'm dealing with but I'm handling it quite well if I may say myself... I'm trying to take things day by day so let's see how the rest of the day goes...