random drabble of thoughts

Got alot on my mind today. Haveing some relationship thoughts and issues. I'm feeling very used and negelected in our realtionship. He doesn't seem to notice. he thinks that everything is hunky dorey. He isn't seeing how I feel right now. I don't know how to tell him without it blowing up into a fight. I hate fights. reminds me to much of my childhood. I have been working on trying to fix myself here lately. He still doesn't know how much I suffer in silence. I have tryied to tell him but I dont think he really understands. I dont really know how to tell him. No body has ever told me how. It always comes out wrong. i just want some more support than what I'm getting. I want some freakin help with some of the stuff around the house. I want to feel like a wife not a nanny or a negelected roommate. or worse his momma!! So i'm off to work. hopeing today goes by fast so I can come back home and sit and get back on dailystrength. Cause somedays it  what keeps me going. but I want him to be what keeps me going. :(