rainbows
I don't mean rainbow babies. I mean rainbows in the sky. I saw my first rainbow today since Sophia left me. Maybe its only the first one i noticed... i've been a little out of it.
And i might not be "christian" in the sense that other ppl would understand it, but i did read the bible. The first thing i thought of was how the rainbow was God's promise to people that he would never flood the earth again. And i couldn't help but think that maybe that was God's sign to me, like he'll never destroy my world again either. Maybe that's corny, but...
And it was a beautiful rainbow, not like one of those half formed dim ones, i could see ALL the colors and a perfect arch. And it made me smile wondering if Sophia got to be the pink in the rainbow. Maybe she was sending that for me, seeing that i was on my way to buy her balloons for her little "party". And i hope shes around here somewhere giving me love and strength because tomorrow is going to be so hard. I'm still not sure if i want all my friends here cuz i might just cry all day and chain smoke!! We will see though.
I still wish i could turn back time. It's only five months, its not like 20 years. I wish i could go back and help her. I feel so helpless sometimes.
I love you Sophia baby. I miss you more than i could say, and i would still do anything to have you back in my world again. You were the most beautiful person i ever met and you'll always have my whole heart.
And i might not be "christian" in the sense that other ppl would understand it, but i did read the bible. The first thing i thought of was how the rainbow was God's promise to people that he would never flood the earth again. And i couldn't help but think that maybe that was God's sign to me, like he'll never destroy my world again either. Maybe that's corny, but...
And it was a beautiful rainbow, not like one of those half formed dim ones, i could see ALL the colors and a perfect arch. And it made me smile wondering if Sophia got to be the pink in the rainbow. Maybe she was sending that for me, seeing that i was on my way to buy her balloons for her little "party". And i hope shes around here somewhere giving me love and strength because tomorrow is going to be so hard. I'm still not sure if i want all my friends here cuz i might just cry all day and chain smoke!! We will see though.
I still wish i could turn back time. It's only five months, its not like 20 years. I wish i could go back and help her. I feel so helpless sometimes.
I love you Sophia baby. I miss you more than i could say, and i would still do anything to have you back in my world again. You were the most beautiful person i ever met and you'll always have my whole heart.
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