raffle went fine
I feel as if a huge wieght has been lifted off my shoulders, my daughter went ahead and finished out selling the tickets and got $80 in sales and recieved some thank you gifts any way, but I don't think she will be interested in doing any raffles in the near future, but she is continuing on in pow wow dancing, which made me feel better.
My relationship is still yet on the rocks. We have good days, but mostly bad days. This morning I left him asleep and told him I would see him later. He has quit smoking, and now I have a thought that he is going to replace it with drinking. He told me to stop preaching, that he can quite when he wants to.
I love him, and want things to work out, but I am afraid we are going to break up, because I can't seem to forgive the cheating. I know it's not my fault he cheated, but I still seem to blame myself for it. Questions like If I treated him better would he have not strayed? Did I drive him to cheating like he said?
Soon he will be working, i should be happy, but I am suspicious. Will this start another episode of cheating? Will he get a big head because he will be supporting himself? I hate being so insecure about everything. I have been trying some of the 180 rules, but it's so hard to change my mind about how to be with a man, when I was trained the man is the head, and we are to submit.
The sad thing is I should be an independant person, I own my home, I pay for it, and i own my own car paid in full. But i am the most co dependant person,
My relationship is still yet on the rocks. We have good days, but mostly bad days. This morning I left him asleep and told him I would see him later. He has quit smoking, and now I have a thought that he is going to replace it with drinking. He told me to stop preaching, that he can quite when he wants to.
I love him, and want things to work out, but I am afraid we are going to break up, because I can't seem to forgive the cheating. I know it's not my fault he cheated, but I still seem to blame myself for it. Questions like If I treated him better would he have not strayed? Did I drive him to cheating like he said?
Soon he will be working, i should be happy, but I am suspicious. Will this start another episode of cheating? Will he get a big head because he will be supporting himself? I hate being so insecure about everything. I have been trying some of the 180 rules, but it's so hard to change my mind about how to be with a man, when I was trained the man is the head, and we are to submit.
The sad thing is I should be an independant person, I own my home, I pay for it, and i own my own car paid in full. But i am the most co dependant person,
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