R.I.P

Rest in peace in paradise uncle john. I now wonder if my binge eating was mainly a way to cope with my grief of john dying.  I don't crave lately, I've been eating terribly - but the guilt hasn't so much been there and neither has the desire- it's just been a lack of time and grabbing whats about thing. I'm interested to see how my health and habits might improve now this grieving period is beginning to heal. John has died, he's funeral was today and reading his Eulogy was both powerful and a little overwhelming but i'm so glad i did it and pulled through it even though I stopped and cried. I pulled myself together! I can't believe his gone. He was so loud and you couldn't miss him. Now you really feel the empty space he engulfed wonderfully!