R.I.P to my very hurt feelings to him, the aspie that I let go

I cant flipping believe what utter frustration, pain, bad depression, hurt he has caused by his slagging me off to his football friends, blanking me, making me feel like a complete fool.  I was very shy of him at one time, cause I used to have feelings for him, but he has completey blew it, by what he has done, I would accept an apology of him for what he has done, but will just have him as an aquaintance and nothing else, I would never, ever date such a very hurtful man, or desire friendship with a man who has made me and my very best friend, suicidle, want to harm my self a lot, make my nerves very bad, make me not wanna got to placements, make me not wanna get up or try with anyone anymore