Quiet Weekend So Far... Just Contemplating a Few Things

So far My Weekend's been Nice. It's just Quiet, and Uneventful, but right now that's just how I like it. I've been Way too tired lately to do much, so Peace, and Quiet suits Me just fine right now. I woke up this Morning much Earlier than I had planned to wake up, because of the Pain in My Knees - especially My Left Knee, and Left Leg lately from the Knee down. If I didn't know better, I'd almost say that it's like I twisted it doing some Activity, but I haven't been doing anything ! Unless maybe just because My Knees are so Bad from the Osteoarthritis that perhaps One Day I turned my Left Knee the " Wrong Way ", and it hasn't adjusted back into place quite right since then. Maybe that's it.. I don't know. Whatever it is, I hope it'll ease up soon. Other than that, I'm Okay. I've made a LOT of Progress, I feel, towards moving on since my Bf - well, Now ExBf - Left Me. It's been sort of Slow Progress, but I'm getting there. I've at least actually moved a couple of the Things He left behind, so I don't have to see Them Every Day. I still have a few Other Things of His I'm going to put in a Box, and put the Box away in a Closet, so I know that They're definitely out of the Way. He's under the Impression that IF He sends Me a Money Order that I'll Ship His Things to Him in Arizona. That is what I said I would do, but I don't know. I really just said it to get Him OFF My Back about it ! He was giving Me a Hard Time about it for awhile. He'd kept Calling Me what seemed like Every Other Day about it, and We got into some Ugly Yelling Matches over the Phone ! I kept meaning to NOT Answer the Phone IF I saw it was Him on My Caller ID, but for some stupid reason I kept picking it up ! I guess call it a sense of Morbid Curiousity, I suppose... almost like the Way people slow to down, and gawk at an Accident. I remember wondering... " What is He going to Say This Time ?! " The Things that come out of His Mouth sometimes just get Crazier, and Crazier, with Each Call He Makes ! LOL The Very Last Time He Called Me, I didn't really Understand WHY He called. Looking back at it now, I'm wondering IF He actually thought that I'd have " Sympathy " for the Things He's been going through so far there with His New GF ! hahahaha !!!! I was extremely Polite with Him... very much MORE than He deserved ! Many Times during the Conversation - which was really just ALL ABOUT HIM, and what He'd been doing Lately... Good or Bad...- I kept thinking to Myself, " WHAT MAKES YOU EVEN BEGIN TO THINK THAT I CARE ABOUT ANY OF THIS ??!! "Of course, I had told Him that I wanted to Remain Friends at least, so I guess part of this maybe was My Fault. BUT, He definitely DOESN'T have the Right Idea about what FRIENDSHIP means ! WHY I would have Thought for a Moment that He knew what being a Friend would mean, I don't know ?!!?... Since He definitely has NO CLUE about how to Truly Love ANYONE !He told Me all about His New GF buying Him  $ 300.00 Worth of Clothes !!!!! I told Him flat out... WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS ? ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY THAT I FAILED YOU BECAUSE I NEVER DID THAT FOR YOU ?! I COULDN'T DO IT, BUT SHE CAN NOW !He claimed that wasn't WHY He was talking about it. He said He was simply explaining about how She had recently LOST HER JOB, and had CASHED IN HER 401K  !!!! Apparently like a COMPLETE IDIOT, instead of keeping that Money in Her Bank Account for Basic Expenses, it sounded from what He told Me that They blew the Majority of it on Luxuries - like New Clothes for Him !!!!! He was NOT that lacking in Clothes... Trust Me on this, He had enough Clothes ! But, apparently I guess She wanted to make it CLEAR to Him that She OWNS HIM NOW ! LOL.. I told Him that, and He didn't like hearing the Truth very much ! BUT THE KEY TO ALL OF THIS CONVERSATION WAS WHEN HE GOT AROUND TO SAYING... THAT NOW BECAUSE SHE LOST HER JOB... THEY DON'T KNOW HOW THEY'RE GOING TO BE ABLE TO PAY NOVEMBER'S RENT AT THEIR APARTMENT ! Hmmmmmm.... Here's a THOUGHT - ( I was thinking to Myself ) - MAYBE IF YOU TWO HADN'T BLOWN THE MONEY ON LUXURIES, THEN YOU HAVE HAD THE MONEY SET ASIDE FOR NOVEMBER'S RENT !!!!! DUMMIES !!!! LOL He said that They might end up having to SLEEP in Her SUV for awhile ! I don't know WHAT He expected Me to say about that ! IF He thought that I was going to JUMP UP, and Say.. DITCH HER, AND COME BACK TO ME ! LOL.. HE HAD ANOTHER THING COMING !!!!! All I said was something like... " Oh Okay.. Well, You'll probably have to get some Extra Pillows, and a Couple of Blankets to make it more comfortable in there ! "COLD OF ME ????!!! OH HECK NO !!!! I don't think so ! NOT after EVERYTHING HE PUT ME THROUGH !!!! IF He ends up having to do that, then He deserves it, and She deserves it for being STUPID ENOUGH TO LET HIM MOVE IN WITH HER AFTER ONLY KNOWING HIM FOR 2 MONTHS !!!!! That's Right... TWO MONTHS is what My Exbf said He knew Her for, BEFORE He Left Me for HER ! I had an ON AGAIN - OFF AGAIN - Relationship with Him since JANUARY OF 2004.... BUT He meets Someone ONLINE and TWO MONTHS LATER takes OFF to go Live with Her !!!!! Granted... YES.. I've been seeing MORE AND MORE Each Day that His Leaving has been a HUGE Blessing in My Life. BUT, the WAY He LEFT ME, and for Someone He BARELY KNEW.... STILL MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM !!!!!!! THEN AS IF HIS WHINING ABOUT THINGS WITH HIS NEW GF WASN'T BAD ENOUGH.... HE STARTED TALKING ABOUT OUR PAST RELATIONSHIP... AND SURE ENOUGH, AS HE ALWAYS DID, HE STARTED BLAMING ME FOR EVERYTHING... YET AGAIN !!!!! THE ASS HAS THE NERVE TO MAKE IT SOUND LIKE ' IF ONLY ' I HADN'T REACTED THE WAY I DID WHENEVER HE WAS ' JUST UPSET ' ABOUT SOMETHING, THEN WE WOULDN'T HAVE HAD SO MANY ARGUEMENTS.... AND THEY WOULDN'T HAVE ENDED UP BECOMING MAJOR ARGUEMENTS !!!! SO ACCORDING TO HIM.... MY REACTION TO HIS RAGE... AND KNOWING DAMN WELL WHAT HE WAS CAPABLE OF, SINCE HE HAD ALREADY HURT ME MANY TIMES BEFORE... WAS THE REASON HE WOULD YELL AT ME SO MUCH... AND WAS THE REASON THAT HE WOULD GET EVEN ANGRIER, AND END UP HURTING ME, BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID OF HIS RAGE !!!!!! DAMN HIM !!!!!! DAMN HIM TO HELL FOR DARING TO SAY THAT TO ME !!!! HOW DARE HE ???!!!!! I'M NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR HIS ACTIONS... FOR HIS MOODS... FOR HIS RAGE ! HE DECIDED TO DO THE THINGS HE DID.... IT WASN'T MY FAULT BECAUSE I WAS SCARED ! WHAT ELSE WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO ????? What He was actually having the NERVE to suggest is that I SHOULD HAVE FOUGHT BACK AGAINST HIM - INSTEAD OF COWERING IN FEAR... AND TERROR !!!!! What a Bunch of BULL !!!!! The ONLY Reason He mentioned this is because apparently His NEW GF DOES FIGHT BACK ! He told Me that during One Big Arguement They had, She actually HIT HIM in the MIDDLE OF HIS CHEST... KNOCKING HIM OUT FOR 20 MINUTES, BECAUSE HE COULDN'T CATCH HIS BREATH... HE WAS LAYING ON THE GROUND FOR 20 MINUTES ! SO NOW... BECAUSE SHE'S A BULLY LIKE HE IS... AND APPARENTLY ALMOST JUST AS VIOLENT AS HE IS... THAT TO HIM MEANS THAT I WAS IN THE " WRONG " FOR NOT FIGHTING BACK ! HOW DARE HE TALK TO ME LIKE THAT !!!!!!!! HE HAD NO RIGHT ! I told Him that the FEW TIMES I had actually TRIED to Fight Back, He would THREATEN TO HURT ME EVEN MORE IF I MOVED EVEN A MUSCLE TO TRY !!!!!! But He, of course, acted like that NEVER HAPPENED ! ANYTHING THAT HE DOESN'T WANT TO REMEMBER..... NEVER HAPPENED !!!!! THAT'S HOW HIS LITTLE " FANTASY " WORLD WORKS, I've realized ! BECAUSE... AFTER THIS PART OF THE CONVERSATION... THEN HE MOVED ON TO THE ULTIMATE PART THAT REALLY THREW ME FOR A LOOP !!!! I don't remember HOW We started talking about this, but suddenly He said.... " THE ONLY TIME I PHYSICALLY HURT YOU WAS BACK IN FEBRUARY ! " I was so SHOCKED by this BLATENT HUGE LIE, that I couldn't help but BURST OUT LAUGHING OUT LOUD ON THE PHONE !!!!! LOL I can't even really begin to imagine WHY He would say that, when I would HOPE that He realizes that it's NOT TRUE ! During those Last 7 Months that We were Together, there were TOO MANY TIMES to even Count where He Physically Hurt Me ! If I had to GUESS at an AVERAGE, I'd say it was at a MINIMUM of at least ONCE A MONTH.... but REALISTICALLY, I think it ended up being much More Often than that !! HOW DARE HE ACT AS IF FEBRUARY WAS THE ONLY INCIDENT ???!!!!! COULD HE HAVE ACTUALLY FORGOTTEN ALL OF THE " OTHER TIMES " ????!!!!OR... Did was He maybe assuming that I'd be SO STUPID to actually BELIEVE Him just because He said it was so ?! Maybe He Only counted February because that was the Only Incident where He HIT ME in the FACE ! The Other Times involved My Arms, or My Legs, Knees, or Ankles. I STILL to this DAY have a slight Green tinge to My Skin on My Arms where He would HIT ME ! YET HE DENIES IT EVEN HAPPENED !!!! HOW DARE HE ?!!!!! THE ASS !!!! WHY I would even Think for a MOMENT about being FRIENDS with Someone Like Him, NOW I just don't know about that... NOT AFTER that Phone Conversation !!!!! How can You even be JUST FRIENDS with Someone that WON'T EVEN FACE THE TRUTH OF THEIR PAST ?! IF He doesn't WAKE UP to what He really did to ME.... then THERE'S NO WAY HE'S EVER GOING TO ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING TO CHANGE ! Though, I gave up on that a LONG TIME AGO, since I've heard His EXCUSES MANY TIMES ! He's deluded Himself so MUCH, that He THINKS that simply going for a " WALK " when He starts to get RAGING, is the SOLUTION to His RAGE ! He doesn't see that that's really NOT ENOUGH ! But He will when His NEW GF has to Break Her Promise to NEVER CALL THE COPS on Him, One Day, because He's HURT Her Very Badly ! YEP... He even Told Me that She's said She'll NEVER CALL THE COPS on Him ! She's said that INSTEAD of the COPS, that She'd call Her BROTHERS that Live Close by, and Have Her BROTHERS BEAT HIM UP IF HE EVER HURTS HER ! LOL In Theory, that might work.... BUT I couldn't help but wonder in the Back of My Mind... WHAT IF Her Brothers were BUSY, OR OUT OF TOWN, at that Time ?! HE'S HER PROBLEM NOW, THOUGH ! NOW, I JUST HAVE GOT TO NOT ANSWER MY STUPID PHONE WHENEVER HE CALLS ME !I foolishly THOUGHT that We could have REASONABLE CONVERSATIONS, but with Someone like Him - Someone that Lives in Their Own Fantasy World - there is NO SUCH THING as a REASONABLE CONVERSATION !!!!