Quick Life Update

Wow...Talk about a while since I last posted anything. So life, well, somethings have changed since my last post. I am at a different job, doing mostly the same thing. I enjoy the job most of the time, it is easy, and I am capable of doing it. I am close to home, and if I need to leave, I pretty much can. My financial strains are both better and worse, because I make more, but I also had to go through bankruptcy, which I am still not entirely sure of where I am at. But, even with the definite positive things in my life, I still feel sad, and alone. I feel like I can't make connections with the people in my life. 

Recently, this feeling is bothering me more and more. It feels like it is at the center of my mind, and no matter how hard I try to talk I am never good enough to actually have a connection with the people who are in my daily life. It's like even though I have been working here for more than a year, it seems like the people I work with still expect me to only have the knowledge of working here for a week. I don't feel like my questions are actually heard for what they are. I feel like I am not given the opportunity that everyone else gets within the company I work for. Everyone else is told that they should be able to do their jobs without the owner necessarily there, but because he is the owner of the company that he should help everyone below him...Except that what I think I need is them not helping me, but involving me so that I know how to handle issues that come up. The team is meant to help the owner, not the other way around...Yet the owner can't even remember all of the things that he is supposed to do because he will not allow me to do my job...

Yet, I cannot force him to allow me to do my job, or to give me the job responsibilities that my title is supposed to have. I feel stupid, and stuck because all I want to do is do my job, but I feel like I cannot do it.