Qualms
I am experiencing qualms about my trip...Qualms about doing the bookings and qualms about....no its mainly the bookings...I am not scared about meeting DS friends, or travelling so much....but bookig online a dcommitting my cash is worrying me.
I am afraid of being down when I go....this time of being up (day 21) is all well and good but over the last 5 years I have unmistakably gone from hero to zero as they say....and manys the time...
Would a trip lift my spirits? Probably not cos it didnt when I went to wellington and nelson that time...I would hate it all...
Prarps I need to hold back on committing myself till Ive been well for another 2 months and book around end of March. I still have plenty of time.
I can figure it all out with a little help from my friends...Joe being one - i am waiting on my itinerary. I need to stockpile some more leave...I will be down to no leave owing.......
But it is a great plan and i want to do it.
Reasons to travel....
1.To explore a new part of the world
2. To prove to myself that I can dream big dreams and make them come true
3. To make real my online friendships with lots of my Daily Strength friends.
4. To encourage new thoughts and actions -write a book...
5. To show others that I am able to achieve significant goals.
6. To broaden my mind and understanding.
7. To give myself confidence.
8. To fulfill lifetime goal- to be a world traveller....
I can do this and i will....No doubts are going to come in to make me depressed!.
I will start off by visiting Ray in Sydney for a couple of days...get myself used to tripping around. Then fly Sydney to seattle, where Joe will meet me and take me to my accommodation. two nights there and then up to BC to meet Tim....I can do this -though the buses take some figuring out- I will do this....
I need to stockpile some leave-only got 13 days and i will need more like 25 or 22 anyway....I can do this....
I want to do this....Maybe the number of friends I want to see is a bit on the ambitious side...could reduce them down to about 10?
I could become an expert on bipolar disorder. Deluded thought that one...but why not?
All is good and cross each bridge as I come to it.
Feeling fine, and not too daunted after all.
I am afraid of being down when I go....this time of being up (day 21) is all well and good but over the last 5 years I have unmistakably gone from hero to zero as they say....and manys the time...
Would a trip lift my spirits? Probably not cos it didnt when I went to wellington and nelson that time...I would hate it all...
Prarps I need to hold back on committing myself till Ive been well for another 2 months and book around end of March. I still have plenty of time.
I can figure it all out with a little help from my friends...Joe being one - i am waiting on my itinerary. I need to stockpile some more leave...I will be down to no leave owing.......
But it is a great plan and i want to do it.
Reasons to travel....
1.To explore a new part of the world
2. To prove to myself that I can dream big dreams and make them come true
3. To make real my online friendships with lots of my Daily Strength friends.
4. To encourage new thoughts and actions -write a book...
5. To show others that I am able to achieve significant goals.
6. To broaden my mind and understanding.
7. To give myself confidence.
8. To fulfill lifetime goal- to be a world traveller....
I can do this and i will....No doubts are going to come in to make me depressed!.
I will start off by visiting Ray in Sydney for a couple of days...get myself used to tripping around. Then fly Sydney to seattle, where Joe will meet me and take me to my accommodation. two nights there and then up to BC to meet Tim....I can do this -though the buses take some figuring out- I will do this....
I need to stockpile some leave-only got 13 days and i will need more like 25 or 22 anyway....I can do this....
I want to do this....Maybe the number of friends I want to see is a bit on the ambitious side...could reduce them down to about 10?
I could become an expert on bipolar disorder. Deluded thought that one...but why not?
All is good and cross each bridge as I come to it.
Feeling fine, and not too daunted after all.
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Hi Dinah! :) i am so very proud of you, for taking very good care, and you have many wonderful goals, that i know you will continue to achieve. :) You\'ll always have our love, care, and support. :) You\'re doing well, and making lots of great progress :) it\'s so nice, that you are taking care, and have such a wonderful traveling adventure planned. :) lots of very special memories to be made, to always cherish, and treasure. :) my family and i look forward to meeting you. :) You\'re a great friend, and have a beautifully loving, caring, and supportive heart, and spirit. :) it\'s so nice, hearing from you, and hearing that you are doing well. :) congratulations, on all of your success, progress, and achievements. :) i\'ll always believe in you, and have faith in you. :) Thank you Dinah, for your beautifully heart warming comments on my journal. :) we\'re so happy, delighted, and thrilled that you enjoyed my journal, and pictures. :) it warms our hearts, and makes us smile. :) We send our love, warm friendship wishes, caring thoughts, many warm sunshine blesisngs, and lots of super big happy friendship hugs, from CT. :) Take care, enjoy a lovely day. :)