Put on a smile...fake

Physically I am a little better but mentally I just feel stagnant. Nothing seems to change...Words are said, interpreted, and fade...So I fake a smile and push to continue for some reason, that I can't figure out... Life is so perplexing, frustrating...To be truthful, I know I don't give a f__k, live or die... I guess that's a slight improvement , yet death is still a constant whisper in my mind...

Mental health....a final frontier....not really worth exploring!! Yet....