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Hey AllIts been a long time since I wrote. Just before Thanksgiving so I can't give you the info how it happen but I tell you what happen as I remember. Thanksgiving day was a bad day. A friend I met on line who I knew for about 3 years and met last summer was home alone chock on some food and died so it was a bad day for me. I was very upset and got a headache from crying all day. I did watch games and enjoyed them in a way but in a way I just went through the motions. I did get my chip and I was happy about it but having lost my friend and having car problems at home I didn't go to meetings or PT for about 2 and half weeks. My son Joey was sick and with the holidays it was hard to get a appointment and going to the ER was a no go around the holidays. I did take him to the doctor and he did have a infection and put on antibiotics again. The doctor was a ass and all I wanted was to get the hell out of there. I did miss going to the gym but I did go once without Joey. But then I got down and didn't want to go. Then came Thanksgiving and then we made an excuse then finally we started back. But today I didn't go I wasn't feeling the hottest. My stepmom called and said since they were on social security disability and couldn't afford alot of presents they came up with a game and all the adults buy presents no more then 25 dollars a piece then the younger kids they would buy presents for so I ask her what about my friends grandson and she hem and haw around and said well we just buy him something and I said ok thank you. Well the next day she called back and said she couldn't afford nothing for him since he wasn't part of the family and I said well I didn't ask her to anyway and was pissed. Couldn't afford a toy for a kid but wanted me to buy 150 dollars worth of presents for a game my husband was mad and said no. So later that week or the next don't remember I call and said we would come but we wouldn't play the game because we was on disability to and we couldn't afford 150 dollars worth of presents for a game but I was buying alex a present and rhonda a present and dad hinted about his birthday being on christmas and I said I knew. So getting him a card but money maybe. I went to meetings and vented but I still was pissed. I've been depressed lately and I figure out why I'm tired of taking medicine and so I talk with someone at the hospital and I probably go in after the first of the year and get detox of my medicnes. Not saying medicines are bad. Its just I don't know if I'm needing them for pain or I 'm just needing them. I don't take strong meds but It don't have to be strong to be addicted to them. So I'm getting a MRI and then going into lock up for awhile to get detox. I still have alot to do for my school and alot to do at the house and the holidays to get through. I want a reason to take the meds. I know I may not be able to go off all of them and thats ok but I can start over and see what happens.I've done this before and did okay and I think I do okay this time to I know the people there and the doctors.I still got lots of stuff to do at home and make sure everything goes well while I'm gone. I will miss my computer and everyone here but maybe when I come back I will feel better about myself and have more smiles. I will be able to do more things maybe still have limits but do more then what I do now. I will have problems with the school. Its a pain in the butt but Its a health problems so what can they do. Well other then what I mention that is the biggest problems except for the usull money problems we get a raise next month but with food prices on the rise it wont make a difference. haha Well everyone have a good day or night and pain free. Love ya all. Robin