progress from pain

I'm not feeling much improved.I'm still heavy, and not in a mindset to be productive and do the things I need to do. I miss some of the past, because I had some great times and I miss those dearly. I need more positives in my life - but this pain tries to tear at my heels. God is close, I want to make room for God to be even closer so that I never have to feel lost compeltely. Or overwhelmed completely. I'm trying to reinforce biblical promises, because even if I am wrapped in emotional thorns I can begin to break free through God.  One good thing I can say about today; in line with my narrative homework... is that I caught up with an old friend - and I was good to do that because I've been isolating myself lately without realising just how much. And I didn't pig out on junk food but reached for the fruit. And I worked towards an investment for my future, being forming an accapella group - determining myself to have a happy future filled with things that allow me to be me and to enjoy life as well as be productive.