Progress for progress's sake.
This still isn't easy. It's hard and surreal. I'm still working on my relationship with food and even though I can barely eat, I don't always make the 'right' choices. I've discovered that I can eat pizza (one slice sans the crust is my entire day's food consumption) and I took deep pleasure in eating it the other day. Today I had pinto beans which is healthy and doesn't make me feel guilty. I don't feel like I should feel guilty for eating pizza or cheese or whatever because I can barely eat. When I eat I eat baby food and cream of wheat and I get hungry again fast. I'm also having a hard time managing to not eat and drink at the same time. I hate not being able to 'wash it down', you know?
Oh well. Baby steps. I guess. What other alternative do I have?
Oh well. Baby steps. I guess. What other alternative do I have?
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Crystal I was due to go in for a endo to check for stricture on dec 1st, got sick and couldnt have it done, now It wont happen till the 22nd. I feel your pain, I hate that I still cant eat and it has been 1 month now. i also cant get used to eating then drinking to wash it down. I have such a issue with the protein drinks, I have swithched several times, now I resorted to chocolate ensure muscle 12g and it takes 2 days to drink. I also only eat sparatically. whatever I feel i can get down I try to eat, but have no set plan. I feel deprived just having applesauce, soup, yougart, and drinking poweraid zero drinks and ice pops. Boring!!!!! I agree baby steps, I see dr on the 9th we will see what changes, hang in there, we are not alone!!