processing anger

next week i will get into the 3rd part of my "looking back". if you are wondering why i am going thru pieces of this history... it's because it caused a lot of anger. not scared, but anger and frustration. all that we went thru built up anger in side me.  this December marks a closing to a chapter in my life and come January, a brand new one. so in order to close it, i have to shed the heavy weight and bitterness and leave it behind me. in order to do that, i have to go over pieces of it, process it, and leave behind what parts hurt. everything that you go thru in life will make you who you are in the future. we are supposed to learn what we can, and put the rest behind us. not to forget it, but to let it go. and if you feel like you can't forgive someone, then give it to God. let him take the burden. after all, we are only human.  in the past...when we came back from Indonesia we had nothing. i had to work at 15 to make ends meet and then had 2 jobs starting 16 while in high school. and then going into the Corps and all the things that happened to me there. i had to take care of mom to save her leg (2002). and then my back injury. my military career ruined. then got on disability and couldn't work anymore. and before the SSDI was aproved, i barely made ends meet.  the reason why this Jan marks the begining to a whole new chapter... NOW... we own a house. not a fancy one... but it's a house... and it's in a very beautiful part of the world. and the love of my life is moving in with me. i have wonderful friends that care... a loving man... and a loving mom. we are so blessed... despite all that we been thru, God has blessed me more than i could have immagined. so as the year closes... think of your past... grab your blessings and count them... process the pain and let it go... take what lessons you have learned... and continue to build your self... love and let love. and most of all, thank God for what He has provided. i hope everyone can close a chapter in thier life to begin a new one. best of luck and God bless!