Problms

You know, I have had certain problems in my life. In all actually, it's really one problem. I have a problem with my anger. I don't have this problem all the time, it comes on suddenly once in awhile. For example, just last week, some how my wife was talking to me about odd things that were things that I wasn't doing right and I tried to take the high road and breath, talked to God, tried counting, tried just letting it roll off my back. No matter what I tried, nothing seemed to work. I blew up to the point of making my wife cry. I'm not saying that I am proud that I made her cry. I hate making her cry, but I get so upset that I just flip my lid. There have been times that I have "blacked out". I have never physically hurt her or touched her, at least that she has told me, but I have put my hand through walls and have jumped down a whole flight of stairs from the second floor to the first floor. I have seemed the council of our pastor and, he has helped, but it didn't seem like it helped to much. It seems that the other night at work, one of the guys seemed to have just been at the right place at the right time. I spilled all this to him and he gave me some words of wisdom, that he paid good money for. He told me that he was in the same position that I was in. He told me that a specialist told him to just picture himself, when he gets upset, imagine himself in a movie acting the way he could see himself winding up. He told me that it really helped break the anger. He found himself laughing at himself. It has put a new spin and not my anger and has left me chuckling from time to time.