problems....

It seems my wife thinks we do not have major problems in relationship and I only need to do small things that she is asking for. Ofcourse I want to do that but that doesn't mean I'm not a liar there great many things I have lied about some small some large so even though it might seem to her they are small but looking back every single lie has just brought me down further in life and I'm in quicksand either I can act quick or drown in lies. I have other things that are problem in this marriage 1 being I want to a good provider husband and father but I am far from it at the moment and it seems harder and harder to be one cause I still can't figure out what to do. I am hoping taking 1 step at a time and major issue is I don't listen or do as my wife says and when I do not it saddens her and breaks her heart because I can't do small things, really she doesn't want anything in life from me except be a family and honest. So I am having hard time with all this not so much the lying but keeping up to make sure I don't accidently tell one and do not realize. Things have been good we well see how it all goes long as I try hard not to lie and be honest  and try to make my wife happy I think I'll be okay.