Pride, Denial and Humility
Last night I attended an online compulsive gamblers meeting at SafeHarbor --- I really enjoyed it and would recommend it to all!! The topic was "freedom from gambling addiction" --- everyone told their own account of their gambling woes and how they gained their freedom or how that freedom has changed their life. As I read what everyone was writing, I just kept saying to myself "I can relate to that". And the more I related, the more I realized ---"I have been in denial". I used to think --- oh, glad i'm not that bad off, or at least I'm not in debt that far or at least I have my sanity (or so I thought). My pride has been keeping me from accepting the fact that I am more or less just like all the other compulsive gamblers -- on some level. Not above, not below, but right there with them. I have a problem just as they do and I have to find a solution to it just as they do or have done. Last night was eye opening and insightful for me. I am so glad that I attended.... So... for me, more work on pride and humility. I have to admit that I have always prided myself on my "pride". I can do this, I dont need any help, I've done greater things on my own, etc... But I was wrong. I cant do this on my own. I need help from my HP and my friends and family. And I have to help myself. I think I will start by taking my pride down a notch or two or three and work on being a more humble, caring and understanding person.
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