Pretty Little Liars
Stevan,
Well tonite I had to suffer through one of Casey's favorite shows. yes that's right you're suppose to be here and watch it with her, not me that was you and Casey's together Father Daughter thing to do. As we watched, Casey told me she wishes you were here right next to her to watch with her. I got tears in my eyes cause I know how much it meant to her to have just your time together. I got through it and had to ask Casey who everyone was and what they were doing and she was getting kind of irritated to have to answer all my questions. It was you who was suppose to watch it with her, but for some reason you were taken away from us and we will never know why until it is our time. I miss you so much my heart hurts, my eyes are puffy all the time, I get no sleep, I lay in bed ( when I finally go to bed) and cry and think of you, I see you over and over again in the hospital as they worked on you to try and get you back for the second time but it wasn't to be. That is a vision that I need to not see anymore, it makes me hurt so bad and want to hold you and tell you I love you.
Stevan, I hope you are OK in Heaven, and I hope you can see and feel how much we miss you and LOVE you. You are my Best Friend and Husband and I need you to come home. As I type through teary eyes I know that is impossible but that is how I feel. Please send me a sign or something so I know you are ok, I wish to dream of you but that isn't happening and I don't know why.
I love you my dear Stevie Boy
Always & Always
Forever & Ever
Laur
Well tonite I had to suffer through one of Casey's favorite shows. yes that's right you're suppose to be here and watch it with her, not me that was you and Casey's together Father Daughter thing to do. As we watched, Casey told me she wishes you were here right next to her to watch with her. I got tears in my eyes cause I know how much it meant to her to have just your time together. I got through it and had to ask Casey who everyone was and what they were doing and she was getting kind of irritated to have to answer all my questions. It was you who was suppose to watch it with her, but for some reason you were taken away from us and we will never know why until it is our time. I miss you so much my heart hurts, my eyes are puffy all the time, I get no sleep, I lay in bed ( when I finally go to bed) and cry and think of you, I see you over and over again in the hospital as they worked on you to try and get you back for the second time but it wasn't to be. That is a vision that I need to not see anymore, it makes me hurt so bad and want to hold you and tell you I love you.
Stevan, I hope you are OK in Heaven, and I hope you can see and feel how much we miss you and LOVE you. You are my Best Friend and Husband and I need you to come home. As I type through teary eyes I know that is impossible but that is how I feel. Please send me a sign or something so I know you are ok, I wish to dream of you but that isn't happening and I don't know why.
I love you my dear Stevie Boy
Always & Always
Forever & Ever
Laur
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It is very hard on children when their father dies. Sometimes I forget that my children have also lost one of the most important people in their lives.
My oldest son is lives in Victoria BC and I worry about him being alone. I do e-mail. My youngest son has changed so much. He use to come over with his children and they would watch sports with his father. He tells me that he can no longer watch hockey.
I also use to visual my husband\'s last heart beat. However I when I think about that moment I try to turn it around. Positive was that he was no longer in pain, he know that at the moment that his heart stopped I loved him , for two weeks I was not allowed to really touch him , that day I lay my head on him and hug him. I helped him at one of the most difficult times in his life - I helped him to pass on to a much greater life.
Journaling to him is also good. I write to my husband everyday. Sending you Hugs
Thank you and hugs back to you
Peace and Love
Laurie