Premonition?..
Almost exactly a year ago, a co-worker was on Facebook and chatted/befriended someone who had the same first/last name as me - thinking it was me...that person was depressed & suicidal. She continued chatting with the person (thinking it was me) and wanted to come get me & my family, and take us to her church. She then contacted other co-workers that she confides in and told them about her communications with "me". When I came in to work, the next workday, she grabbed me and hugged me telling me it will all be ok...of course I had no idea what she was talking about and she swore up & down it was me she was chatting with on facebook...we went back and forth & I asked her to go back and check her messages/chat history (if possible) and she'll see it wasn't me but someone with same first/last name. She did eventually discover that it wasn't me...She, nor anyone, knows that I am chronically depressed and suicidal so this was a very eerie experience. Ever since then it's been a running joke around the office (joked yesterday about it) which I've gone along with the 'humor' but I'm growing very uncomfortable about it...
A few years ago, my best man was killed in an automobile situation (car's fuel line leaked blew up/caught fire). A few months before he died, a former co-worker of his called his house & his spouse answered the phone. The co-worker called to give her condolescences about hearing my best man getting killed while in Afghanistan. The spouse tried to convince the co-worker that he's still alive and in fact home with her & put my best man on the phone. It was a running joke for awhile until my best man died in his freak car accident months later...
My best man's situation had premonitory results and I sincerely hope mine doesn't follow suit...
I can interpret my situation where: others are out there that care and will offer support if called upon; solicitation of my co-worker to extend friendship to me so I don't feel so isolated in this world; or I can see this as a premonition, like my best man, of something ominous that will happen...I have not, to this day, extended friendship request via facebook with this co-worker..
A few years ago, my best man was killed in an automobile situation (car's fuel line leaked blew up/caught fire). A few months before he died, a former co-worker of his called his house & his spouse answered the phone. The co-worker called to give her condolescences about hearing my best man getting killed while in Afghanistan. The spouse tried to convince the co-worker that he's still alive and in fact home with her & put my best man on the phone. It was a running joke for awhile until my best man died in his freak car accident months later...
My best man's situation had premonitory results and I sincerely hope mine doesn't follow suit...
I can interpret my situation where: others are out there that care and will offer support if called upon; solicitation of my co-worker to extend friendship to me so I don't feel so isolated in this world; or I can see this as a premonition, like my best man, of something ominous that will happen...I have not, to this day, extended friendship request via facebook with this co-worker..
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Moment by moment we adapt and learn to live again. The longer I hang on the more able I am to adapt and also to let go of the \'garbage\' I used to think was important in life. Simple and basic is how my life is today. The healing continues for I have finally begun to let go of the false expectations which left me living without hope.
Moment by moment as we adapt we can learn to find ways to live a viable life once again. Not overnight and not easy but possible.
Gentle ((hugs))
:-) Patricia
Premonitions are rare and they are rarely from God. Satan is at work, Mal. He wants you to take that step. Don\'t think I\'m nuts when I say this (although I may be a TAD nuts and who would blame me). That Liar is fully capable of doing works such as you describe with your co-worker, that Liar is fully capable of putting into your mind these \"synchronizations\" such as you describe here. DO NOT BELIEVE IT. You hide your depression and suicidal thoughts, this means you\'re isolating. That\'s the worst thing you can do. What you need is someone to talk to in person, someone you can trust, who can help you.
I have rarely suffered from serious depression. The only thoughts of suicide I have ever had were because of the loss of my daughter and I\'ve learned to recognize the source of those thoughts. You are here, my dear friend, for a reason. And you are not alone unless you choose to be alone. There is help, for you; there is help, for me; there is help for anyone who looks for it. I pray for you every day.
jill
@Ellzeena - it\'s very easy to draw this connection with what happened to my best man and to my situation; why do you consider this Satan\'s work? The ONLY person I have to talk to is my Therapist; and even with her I don\'t discuss my deep dark thoughts for fear of being placed in the hospital again - I\'ve gone down that path and it led me to 3 days there. Being committed there did not benefit me; was more like being in \'time-out\'...I therefore use these journals here as an outlet, it\'s all I have. That\'s why my writings here are so \'dark\'...please continue to pray for me