pregnancy

I feel so alone. My baies father is gay and he struggles with alot of stuff but we are good friends. He takes me to the doctors. i pay him of course for gas.he says he doesn't want it. We used to talk about everything and be the best of buds before i got pregnant. His mom i just wish he knew but is no use everything i say is wrong and everything his mom says will be right and of no consequense. Because all boys thinkl that thier mothers are perfect. Now i have a baby growing inside of me that we wrote up papers that he has no finacial responsibilty for. people have asked him if he is the dada and he denys my son. but when we are alone he tells me hhow much he loves him the baby that is. You love him but you want no responsibilty for him hmmmm. Yet he still wants to visit him he doesnt want to pay for anything he doesnt want to take care of him he just wants to visit when he want oh my gosh it just makes me so sick. yet you can volunteer to help out your brothers and sisiters who have to parents all ready but you cant take care of your own baby. You say your not ready then you take on more jobs to support hem adding a third parent but you let your son have one parent. and he wont be able o do alot of hings either. I just wonder how he is even going to have a partner if he cant grow up. Better yet hell probably be great were supposed to be best friends but he lies so much to me for them. Just tell me the truth. im staring to hate the fact that i am not a gay male maybe he would be more honest with me. if i were.