Well I had my pre-op appointment yesterday. And let me just tell you my nerves are alot worse now then they were. I've had to take like 4 xanax's in the last 2 days and I usually only take them when I have a panic attack. Which has also been more frequent lately. I've had 2 in the last week which is alot for me. Well pretty much all they did was just my vitals and put info in the computers but I had to see 5 different people to get this all done. I was doing ok till he started explaining the risks and benifits and then he said if something were to happen and you need a blood tranfusion would you like to recieve one. I was like of course I dont want to die. But it really scared me. I know its not likely something would happen but still.......I've always been a really bad worrier I worry about everything.  On another note I feel better not sick anymore. I think it was just my nerves. I hope everyone is doing well. I also found out yesterday that I have to take a week off of work. So that kind of sucks. Well I guess I better go. I'll try to catch up later. Love and hugs, Monica