Praying to the lord, but he ignores me.

Where do you go when your discouraged? I always feel better at the beach, I've been so stressed out lately. I am just wondering when I will be happy again and theres nothing funny anymore. I'm losing my mind and I'm feeling so guilty, smoking weed until I go blurry just losing focus forever paronid and nervous because I'm high. I am so lost and lonely I thought I had friends but in the end I am just lonely no where to run I feel in terror and no body cares. Flashbacks of drugs are reoccuring and I am just out of it, I don't even like myself how could I get someone else to. Trying to get help but no body understands I'm telling you right now you don't know me.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I love the beach. I love night time. I love hiking.
deleted_user
deleted_user

God is faithful to those you have faith.
deleted_user
deleted_user

who instead of you
AdamTyler
AdamTyler

God doesn\'t exsist to me. If he did he would\'ve made that clear a long time ago, I believe in myself and the will to make it in this life alone. I\'ve had no help so far I have faith in what I believe in and, that is my own success and failure good or bad happy or sad. I\'ve prayed enough and I have been ignored enough.
deleted_user
deleted_user

He hears you! Trust me
Tell him you need more faith
he will give you more proof
deleted_user
deleted_user

Its not Gods fault your going through a hard time, God doesnt suddenly make your life perfect but he does help you through the harder times to get through it and in the end when he sees how faithful you were to him he\'ll bless you in ways you couldnt even think of right now, im sorry your going through such a hard time hay :(
AdamTyler
AdamTyler

No I\'m sorry guys. I totally understand how difficult it is to deal with a person who doesn\'t believe in god, and ever since I can remember my own mind I have been going to church and listening for god, but that answer has never came to me. If there is a god then I guess the joke is on me, but for now hell can\'t be so much worse than what I am going through right now. Also if there is a god I will never forgive him for taking my family so suddenly cause I need them now :\'/