Prayers needed for strength

Hi SOTH - Just a short journal this morning - Would you all please keep me in your prayers and hearts this week? As I have told you in prior journals, I am moving my daughters things from one storage to a less expensive storage and possibly donating, giving away, etc. This is a monetary move - I know there are some who feel, do it when you are ready but reality is I can't afford what the monthly payment is now.
I know that I will be strong and do what I have to do for Jennifer. I come here because I know you understand my heart and the deep sadness mixed with anger that this move will do....Back to WHY WHY WHY.....The feelings are always there but dealing with this brings it to the fore front of my BEing.
I have close girlfriends who are going to be helping me, gently guiding me along and my husband who isn't so gentle and "just wants stuff gone". I pray for signs from Jennifer that will keep me going and I pray that I will feel her presence that will give me strength.
Love each of one you- I can't keep walking on this uphill journey without you. Thanking you in advance. Vicki

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Missinglisa
Missinglisa

My prayers are with you Vicki. I am glad you have supportive friends to help and guide you.
As for your husband; he is like a lot of men. Get rid of it and maybe you won\'t think about Jennifer; AS IF!! Not all, but many men just can\'t face sadness so they pretend. They also want to make it better and that just is not possible. Joe finds it hard when I cry, but I cry anyway.
Love and hugs,
Marlene
RememberKala
RememberKala

You are doing what you need to do and you will do it as you\'ve done everything else, with a tear, or two, and with great love for Jennifer.

You are in my prayers~~
NoraMc
NoraMc

having friends there to help is so wonderful of those friends,,, love ,, hugs and lots of prayers as you venture into Jennifer\'s things... love ya!
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am about to do the exact same thing Vicki.......go to the storage unit (I have never been there, my friend did all the moving in) to step down to a smaller space that isn\'t as expensive. So: I will see the things stored and I will also have to set aside a couple of things for April\'s Dad (a carton of her artwork being one of them). Will this cause pain? You bet. Am I prepared? Never can be, this pain hits randomly and it takes the smallest thing to set it off. Can I do it? Yes. Can you do it? Yes.

I think about this: every single thing in storage, including the expensive brass headboard I bought for her bed, and the other furniture that was in her room (she had the master bedroom) as well as some other furniture that is just too close to \"heart\" for comfort - upon my death, unless her Dad survives me, will go to the dump. I just can\'t put it there. My daughter\'s life, in cartons, art work, books, decorations, stuffed animals: when I\'m no longer in this world, they will mean nothing. But right now, they mean everything.

My prayers for your doing what needs to be done.
zzztop
zzztop

I will be thinking of you and saying prayers Bless your angel Jennifer. I lost my daughter to I know your pain I hate it. Love mary ann
JennsMom66
JennsMom66

I\'m so glad your friends will be there in body ( we are always with you in spirit)
To help with sorting.
Your hubby is no different than most...
Hugs, good strength giving hugs
Marylou
KandL
KandL

Vicki, I am right beside you with love and prayers as you go through Jennifer\'s things. It will be hard but as always you do what you need to do out of love for Jennifer.
She will be with you..love, Linda
laurim45
laurim45

Praying for you..been there done that and I want it to be easier for you. Love and strength, Lauri
donnasd
donnasd

This has got to be super hard for you. Sending thoughts & prayers-
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

Sending my love and heartfelt prayers dear Vicki. Oh, this is a tough one indeed and grateful you have some helping hands.

Feel it all and know that you can come here and we\'ll be waiting to help hold it with you.

May you find what you need to do what you must.

With you and caring~
XO Joanie
CFMOM2
CFMOM2

Hoping the love in your heart will help you move forward on this journey. The things of our life are only things, it is the love that counts. Sending you vibes of healing on this journey. xoxoxox
MichaelsMom21
MichaelsMom21

I had to clean out my son\'s room 2yrs after his passing because my daughter and granddaughter moved in with us. It hurt a lot. I saved what I thought was most precious to me.
I even saved some papers from school because of his writing. We are using his bedroom furniture even though it has kind of seen it\'s days. I will take a picture of them before we dispose of them. I will keep his bed frame, his sister is using it. She is also using his mattress which needs to go, my daughter has one to replace it. However this is what he slept on. It is hard to give it up. But when I do it will be picture time again.
What ever works for you. I wouldn\'t have cleaned it out then if it were not for them moving in.
You are in my thoughts
I hurt for you.
Love
Laura
PLA58
PLA58

The hardest thing is getting rid of THINGS it is part of our lost child. I still have a lot of Mikes clothes, my goal is to have a quilt made out of them. Memories of different stages of his life. I have them in space bags in a closet. I have gone through picture\'s of Mike and his sister when they were small and some from activities made a college great memories.

It takes time to get to a place to give up something, or change it around. You will know when the time is right. I am almost ready for the quilt it has been 5 1/2 yrs.
sending tight hugs
Penny