Prayers almost answered...
I pray to GOD everyday for him to do my 'dirty work'; he gave me a taste of what he's capable of and almost answered my prayers.
I was coming home (well not really, on my way to the liguor store) during a heavy rain storm. My speed exceeded the limits and with the roads wet I was hydroplanning. I felt the car slide and almost hit a tractor trailer; my car is low so I really would've slide right under him. I managed to get control and avoid him at the last minute...I cowardly admit that my punkass was momentarily scared...this happened couple days ago on my birthday! DAMN!...
I was coming home (well not really, on my way to the liguor store) during a heavy rain storm. My speed exceeded the limits and with the roads wet I was hydroplanning. I felt the car slide and almost hit a tractor trailer; my car is low so I really would've slide right under him. I managed to get control and avoid him at the last minute...I cowardly admit that my punkass was momentarily scared...this happened couple days ago on my birthday! DAMN!...
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See...there\'s a reason why you\'re still here. It\'s not your time yet.
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I\'m very frustrated that HE hasn\'t defined to me what my purpose is...what the hell am I here for??!!...
I had a very similar experience while suicidal. I lost control of my car on the interstate during a snow storm. I too managed to regain control. Feeling that fear and reflex to save my own life was completely bizarre given my suicidality. It was nice to know that some part of me had a will to live I guess.