Prayer Request

My thoughts of SI are getting worse.  I see my therapist tomorrow.  I want to be honest with her, but I don't want her to think I need to be hospitalized.  I know I'm better off at home, cuz in a hospital I don't have all my coping strategies.  (ipod, knitting, cross-stitch, etc)  I'm not suicidal, only wanting to cut or hurt myself in some way to stop the pain!  i"ve started hitting myself in the head.  I wish I could knock myself out, but it didn't work.
Please pray for wisdom for me and my therapist!  And that we can get to what's behind these urges so it'll go away!!
PS - does anybody read my journal entries?   Just curious.  If you'd like just leave a 'read it' comment.