possible insomnia

well its 3am n im wide awake. Been up for 30min now. Brain goin round in circles w all my stress n probs. yesterday I was up at 4am-6am. I took a lorazapam n eventually fell asleep but was groggy in mornin. I took half of one tonight so im hopin it still does the trick. I gotta get up in 3 hrs! Im gonna b tired. I have a lot to do tomoro. I need an estimate on my car turned in so I can get assistance to help w cost. Then I gotta try n help clean garage cuz washer broke n they gonna have to come n fix it. Then I need to get my referral goin at 8 when they open. Pack my bags n b on my way to anchorage to spend a few nights there. I dont wanna go but I do. I dont cuz I wont c kids in mornings n afternoons. Its their dads wk but ive been helpin him w gettin kids to n from school. I do wanna go so I can get out of this house. Been arguin w roomate lately n will prob b movin out in a month if I can get assistance w it. Im feelin my world will never change n its always gonna b dark n gloomy. Im startin to believe I just dont deserve to b happy.