pooped out

This is my first journal entry.  I keep thinking I can do this without outside support.  My husband is terrific, but I think this disease and what it is doing to me is difficult for him.  Today I am frustrated.  I had the shot last night (avonex) and I am pooped out.  My body feels like it was in a trash compactor.  I got out of bed tired and anticipate it will be one of those tired days.  I miss feeling good.  I don't like how I walk or the way people look at me, however the loss of energy and the ability to do what I want to do when i want to do it is frustrating.  Sometimes I feel so hopeless and useless.  And in reality i know this is not true.  I am still teaching PE full time.  My adminstration is supporting me by bringing in another person to teach in the afternoons when it is hot.  I am very fortunate that they are being supportive.   I think I feel stuck between being mobile and disabled.   I hate this disease and being tired.  I hate that it has made me change how I enjoy my spare time.  I was very active and now have trouble cleaning the house.  I have been learning to listen to my body and slow down.  It is difficult to realize limitations. My faith does bring me comfort.  I know God uses all for good.  And I sometimes wonder how I can do this for the rest of this lifetime.  I stay positive most of the time.  today I am mad and tired.  And feeling like this disease is stealing some of my joy of life.