Point proven yet again!

I HATE my life even moreso when I've said sumthin and it comes true!!!  All my life I've been forced to depend! As Dr. *****'s grandaughter everything was laid out... I slid through school not knowing how to read and the teachers just compinsated! All except 1 and thatbyear I failed! So here I am trying to get my fuqd up ass life together and i have no fuqn clue wat im doin... granted inlearned how to read a little better but dayum idk any ofbthis and its just makin me feel even more dumb and inadequate than i already felt! I can barley read this shyt let alone comprehend any of it! I'm learning ASL asbim HoH wtf does MLA and the rest if this bs have to do with me speaking with my hands!?!  all this shyt is foin is making me feel dumber! (Yes that's a word 2day) UGH as if I needed to feel worse about myself... :'(