point and laugh

I hate how I learn something and when I try to explain how it made me feel and what I got out of it and all they do is laugh and joke about it... It's not a joke.. I realize how blind i am of what is really in front of me.or even whats not in front of me.. im starting to get a reality check and it makes me want to cry or puke. its such an intense feeling..but i tried to explain to them some of "what the bleep do we know" and they laughed at metold me i sounded like a hippie that smokes too much weed.which really upsets me. it hurts my feelingsbut instead i smiled and said you'll get yours... you'll seeand they laughed somemore but the more they laughed the more i wanted to laugh too because they are so BLIND! They have no idea whats comingThe end of everything and they take that for granted. people take so many things for granted, i know i do. but why cant we just sit back and observe, why worry about putting stuff in at the last minute... seconds, minutes.. they dont exist in the universe.. only what is destined to be.no do i realllyy sound like a hippie? haha if so i dont want to sound like anything else.