Poem -Hope Abandoned

HOPE ABANDONED.
~Dedicated to Matthew Eric Crawford

I once had a dream
Of fulfillment, companionship & peace
Felt a paradigm shift & believed
I could live in contentment-could find relief

Thought I had conquered darkness
Thought light could be my life
But the demon always finds me
And latches onto me tight

It was dangerous to rely on Hope
It was reckless to believe in love
It was foolish to let myself open up
It was hazardous to try to rise above

Might as well give up on happiness
Might as well abandon dreaming
Might as well go back to sleep
& continue self-deceiving

Now the loneliness returns
Now the numb heart lives again
Now the darkness descends anew
And I retreat back into my prison