Plowing Thru it all..
I am plowing thru this transition with much disdain & lethargy - albeit probably not with the most open of minds or positive outlooks but I continue to put one foot in front of the other (perhaps half-a-foot) & make progress perhaps at a snails pace..I feel much energy is submitted to maintaining a status quo of indifference; which I perceive is better than an antagonistic, opposing approach to the inevitable..
I continue to get the 'pull-yourself-together'; 'others-have-it-worse-than-you'; 'this-happens-everyday' b/s commentary or advice as if these template platitudes are to uplift my spirits & 'sensibly' change my perspective..I hate constantly feeling as if my resilience is under attack..Now when they ask "how I'm doing", I've at least 'smartened' up and to provide an opened-ended/abstract/somewhat neutral answer - my response is that - "I'm doing.."; my combat has been a retreat into isolation in order to salvage what little tolerance I have to "deal" with this marrital abbortion & internal adversity..
Perhaps I'm the one that doesn't 'get-it'; that I don't seem to understand why I'm SUPPOSED to empbrace this 'new life' with open arms AND deal with all my completely unlocked & unresolved past issues that seem to now be substantially magnefied & intensified - WHY CAN'T I GET IT! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME??!!
I continue to get the 'pull-yourself-together'; 'others-have-it-worse-than-you'; 'this-happens-everyday' b/s commentary or advice as if these template platitudes are to uplift my spirits & 'sensibly' change my perspective..I hate constantly feeling as if my resilience is under attack..Now when they ask "how I'm doing", I've at least 'smartened' up and to provide an opened-ended/abstract/somewhat neutral answer - my response is that - "I'm doing.."; my combat has been a retreat into isolation in order to salvage what little tolerance I have to "deal" with this marrital abbortion & internal adversity..
Perhaps I'm the one that doesn't 'get-it'; that I don't seem to understand why I'm SUPPOSED to empbrace this 'new life' with open arms AND deal with all my completely unlocked & unresolved past issues that seem to now be substantially magnefied & intensified - WHY CAN'T I GET IT! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME??!!
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I\'m glad to hear you are putting your feet forward -- do take it slow and keep on doing what you are doing -- honoring your feelings.
I think it is uncomfortable for the average person to hear the truth that you are just barely hanging on -- that\'s their own \"stuff\" -- not yours.
Most of us want fast answers and unambiguous solutions -- (is that a word -- well if not I just created it :) -- that\'s the human weakness.
To provide you with an answer (not that I have one) would be a disservice -- As a friend and knowing how much tiredness can affect my own life, thinking etc. I can only strongly encourage you to get plenty of sleep if possible and -- please try to eat something that if not healthy at least is comforting.
You are in a tough spot and it would be hard for anyone to cope. Please hold on and try to be a bit kinder to yourself.
I don\'t get it either. Never will.
You are going through alot. Hang in there. Please be kind to you as you are to others. You do deserve good no matter what you think.
It is not right for others to put down your feelings and say others have it worse. That is belittling your feelings. I\'m sorry you are hearing this everyday.
You do what you need to in order to survive. Your situation is very sad and hard to get over; if ever. Please don\'t beat yourself up. You are a great guy who is very kind and caring!!!
(((((HUGS))))))
It\'s not you that doesn\'t \"get it\", it\'s the others that don\'t walk an hour in your shoes and think this is no big deal.
I am glad you are able to at least put 1/2 foot in front of the other at
this point. I know it can\'t be easy.
When folks ask me that, I simply say with a smirk \"I\'m here\" and move away..
You\'re a very special fella and I\'m so sorry you are having to go through
all this:(:(
(((((((((((((gentle hugs)))))))))))