Please look at me.
I was too busy to see His grace. You could already see our Saviors face. Sanitize, prioritize, planning, shopping, cooking, cleaning, timing everything just right. STOP looking at God, I'm right here! STOP thinking of leaving me! I've worked too hard to let you go! Please look at me. God told me in a dream, but I pushed it away. I wasn't ready. I'll never be ready. I was so angry that you were at peace about dying, even though that was what I prayed for you to feel. God answered my prayer. God told me you would die that day, so I called everyone and we all said our goodbyes. It was surreal. That was over 8 months ago. A few days ago God reminded me that I forgot to pray for me. Believe me, my Savior has been looking out for me and I'm pretty sure He has me where He wants me. I can't thank Him enough for taking the wheel of my life. I've been a basket case off and on, thankfully while I was alone. So I'll try hard to pray for me now, because I know you want me to be happy and enjoy the gifts of our Father. I'll never forget our love Don, and I'll try to live on in this world until I see you again. Don't forget me.