please i need somebody to talk too

i don't know where to start. i am a nervous wreck, my birthday has come and gone nothing new the same old stuff going on. i can not take the pain i live with anymore. i am never happy any more. i thought helping with my nease and nephew would help but its not. i don't want the kids to see me in this much pain. they don't understand what is going on with me. i don't know what to do any more. so please i need somebody to help me