please i need help

please i need to find some help. i been trying to follow what my doctor's say and take the meds but there is so much i can handle. the side effects is bad. but i am still taking the meds. i am so depressed all the time i make myself go to work and people can tell something is wrong with me. they just don't know what it is. i feel like sometimes my life is not worth this much pain. i am in so much pain right now. i can't sleep. and i have to go to work in the morning. i try to keep busy so i don't have much time to think but it makes things worse. all the stress is building up i don't want to have another nervous breakdown this week.