please help me

Today will be okay, I take a deep breath, I fool myself into my fantasy world, but then I remember that it isn’t real, I try so hard to be happy, I force myself to smile, but inside I’m dying, I only cry when I can’t hold back the tears, they are not tears of sadness nor anger, but rather tears of regret that I was never born, I often why am I still here, do I even have a purpose??  Are they right?? Am I better off dead?? My mum tells me to put on a brave face, and ignore their words, but how can I ignore them when they are everywhere??  How can I forget about them when there is no one else?? I wish someone would make them disappear, I wish someone would hear my cries, but no one ever does. Please help me, I am losing this war, I don’t want to give up on hope tomorrow, but tomorrow will never come.